Surgery was a success. I no longer have breasts or nipples, and it's actually more awesome than I imagined it. I haven't missed my nipples once so far. I still, however, feel like I'm naked all of the time, because I'm not wearing a bra. Weird, no? I wonder when that will go away.

For years, I've been really curious about how much my breasts weighed, and I thought this would be the perfect (and last) chance to find out. However, so far, I've been unable to get a definitive answer. I've weighed myself a couple of times since the surgery, but it hasn't been very informative. First off, I have all of these drains attached which collect blood and fluid, so they are adding some weight. But, I haven't been eating very much, so I've probably lost a little weight. And then, the pain meds back me up (if you, uh, know what I mean), and I'm a little bloated from the anesthesia. So that's probably also distorting the numbers. So, who knows? Right now, I'm about 3 to 5 pounds less than I when I went under the knife, but judging from the grooves in my shoulders left from my bra straps, I'll be a little disappointed if the girls didn't weigh more than that. At any rate, after gaining weight during chemo, it's nice to see the drop on the scale, even if it doesn't mean a smaller pant size.